Where did May go?

I have absolutely no idea where the month of May went? I think a few days in the hospital and then a week's worth of pain killers after surgery have that affect on me! I feel awful because I have literally taken 1, yes 1 photo of Adalyn this ENTIRE month! I've been good about getting videos of her, since I have the convenience of my iPhone, but other than that I've got nothing! This next week we have a lot going on, so I'm hoping to be able to capture some of those moments! Tomorrow we are planning a quick trip down to Sheridan to visit Taylor's parents, and his grandparents are in town also! We haven't seen his grandparents for over a year, so it'll be nice to see them again and they can see how much Adalyn has grown! On Monday, Memorial Day is my 26th birthday and all I know is I get to go shopping with a friend and the rest is a surprise! I suppose God knew what he was doing when he gave us Adalyn on June 3rd, because I'm' so focused on her birthday party that I forget about mine, which is a good thing because I HATE surprises for the sole reason I don't have control of what's going on, but I LOVE surprises other than that! I'm usually bugging Taylor with a million questions and trying to figure out what he's got planned, but no time now that I've got Adalyn's party to think about!

On Friday, Taylor and I went back to the Reproductive Endocrinologist for my post surgery appointment. He said that everything is healing wonderfully and that I should be pain free! I asked him about going back to the gym and he said that I can't do BodyPump, which is a weight lifting class, for another month, but I am allowed to do just about anything else that doesn't involve the use of my abs :) I am also down to 164 pounds, which means that in the past year I've lost 32 pounds! I was looking at photos from last year and I just can't believe how different I looked! As far as fitting in my wedding dress in 70 days... I originally thought that I was 150 when I got married, but now I'm thinking I was more like 140ish. So 20 more pounds to go in 10 weeks, I can so do this!

Finally something that Taylor and I have been really struggling with these past few weeks and could really use a few prayers for. Should we have another baby? ? The Reproductive Endocrinologist told us that we should have no fertility issues whatsoever, but since the remaining uterus is half the size of a normal one, there is close to a 0% chance of me being able to carry a baby to full term. I went into labor at 31 weeks with Adalyn, because she ran out of room to grow (didn't know that at the time). We were SOOO blessed with how well she did in the NICU (breathed on her own, no oxygen, came home after only 31 days, no complications from her prematurity AT ALL) Right before Adalyn was born, the nurse wheeled me down to NICU to show us what to expect after Adalyn was born. We saw babies that were only a pound, hooked up so many different types of machines to help them breath and to feed them and to keep them warm enough and at that moment everything came into focus for me... the seriousness of prematurity and how life threatening that it can be! But after that I had to pull myself together and block that reality out to get through the next few days and even months! I had it set in my mind that nothing was going to happen to Adalyn and that God was taking care of her, and praise the Lord that He did exactly that. But knowing now what we know, should we "risk" having another child and put him or her in danger of all of those complications? Taylor keeps saying, "Just because we CAN doesn't mean that we SHOULD?" I understand that, but God blessed us with Adalyn being healthy, why wouldn't He do the same once more? I am not "set" on having a second child, because I really do love our little family and we have been abundantly blessed! We have always thought about adopting a child as well, so maybe that's something we need to consider more. Besides, we aren't planning on expanding our family anytime soon (Maybe 2 more years?) and we have plenty of time to pray about it and wait for His answer....